A loner's world

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Superhero

Well this would be a very lame post... in short it's just me flying around (or swimming, as you would later understand) my entire neighbourhood in a dream, meeting countless people on the ground who did not at all seem perplexed by a huge figure moving above their heads.

Before I start, I would like to say it's strange... because in these days of clueless anxiety and sian feeling, I would think that I could only have bad dreams about my life. Well, in fact I have. I had one really stupid dream about going into army, and then the whole ride to the place was so sian, when I reached there there was a huge amount of people walking to this horrible narrow walkway in between a large rainforest right beside the main road. There were young man wearing those pixelated uniforms, carrying their pixelated bags, and some were dressed in casual army attire jogging... and I had to enter into the "abyss" of the rainforest where I would be physically and mentally tormented. Ok that's where it ended - I hope it stays a dream as it is because there's always this exaggeration factor about dreams.

Going back to my good dream, I was in a shopping centre with my family and a few of my good friends were also known to be walking around there as well. There was A LOT of people there- I remember looking around and seeing a decent number of colourful shops, but I wonder why were there SO MUCH people. Perhaps there was some carnival going around. Well to make my dream more coherent, I think it was a really huge event set in the future where a selected few will be given superpowers and those who wanted a chance to receive them had to be in the vicinity of this huge shopping centre. There's probably a scientific method to make people have these superpowers in the future...

Anyway, the shopping centre resembles Nex imo, probably because my mind uses existing memories, and outside the shopping centre there were many flats, a large swimming pool, a beautiful park and many roads... it felt like a mix of the neighbourhood in reality and the SimCity that I have created. Dreams are weird. There was a staggering crowd as well, and thinking about it, it must have been the huge WP rally in Serangoon Stadium that attracted 30000 people (including my curious mum and me) that stimulated this dream... it was just crazy... it's like those legalized Occupy Wall Street Movement that can only be held once per 5 years here.

The park beside the shopping centre was brilliant, it was perfectly designed with a variety of beautiful trees, shrubs, running tracks, empty spaces, wooden benches and tables, plus grand yellow lights that illuminate the area at night. Was it the A level GP comprehension that subconsciously created this dream?

Anyway, to cut the crap short, I think I separated with my family to walk alone in the shopping centre. It's pretty chill actually... and the thing is, I didn't even think I would win any superpower of sorts. I don't know it's a dream so I treated it very seriously... but I could possibly ,with some luck, see people flaunting their superpowers; that would be absolutely cool.

After walking around aimlessly for a while in the crowded shopping centre with no indications of anything happening, I just randomly put my hands in my pocket like I always do. Besides my wallet, I found this pretty small crumbled and rolled up piece of white paper. I unraveled it to read the following:

"Congratulations! You have been granted the supernatural ability to "fly". It's all in the mind- just channel your mind to focus on the concept of flying to be granted the ability to do so."

This part felt like the numbing moment when I saw my name on the screen on prom night- I had won an expensive wallet. I didn't even think about it, no inkling that I have to go up on stage in front of everyone just to take the prize. However, it felt a lot more drastic than that, I was thinking, is this a prank? How could I possibly gain this superpower if I did not even do anything significant in my life, or feel my body changing or anything. I really didn't know what to expect.

I walked out of the shopping centre and the crowd was still there, no one had an inkling of what happened. I don't think they even realized my newly found powers (in my dreams) hahaha. And no one has been seen flaunting their powers, if any. However, the event was pretty mysterious, no one knew how they chose the lucky individuals, or how many people would be chosen. So with this ecstatic but yet cautious mood, I slowed my breath and walked out calmly out of the area.

I walked to some low level HDB flats nearby where it was pretty deserted. "How do I start trying my power?" I thought. I attempted to make a jump to the heavens. It didn't even reach the 2nd floor. Horrible. "Is this a dream?" I thought (it was... but yeah I didn't know lol). After a few frantically stupid jumps, I decided to try it differently. I remember what the note said- it's all in the mind. Hence, I closed my eyes, and instinctly, I flapped my hands like a bird- a bit retarded but yeah. Slowly, I began to believe I could really FLY. Fly, fly, fly; my brain thought.

I opened my eyes briefly... I couldn't believe it! I would halfway up in the sky, looking directly at eye level at the 2nd floor, where all the potted plants are placed along the corridors. With this instantaneous boost of confidence, I distilled my thoughts and flapped my hands harder. Gradually but surely, I flew higher up! As stupid as it seems, I became so confident that I flapped my hands really high- I reached as high as those 12 storey HDB flats. However, something in my brain hinted to me that something was amiss...

It turns out that I can estimate the reserves I have for flying... so when I went so high up, my reserves depleted, and I began to fall, quicker and quicker towards the cold hard ground. Panicking, I channelled my reserves of energy to slow down my descent and create a powerful upward thrust. But it was of no use. I slowed down gradually- but still I fell quickly, 8- 7- 6-- 5-- 4--- 3---- 2----- thud!!!

It was pretty pain, my ribs hurt like hell. Amazing for a dream I would say- it just shows that the brain is responsible for everything that we perceive, including pain, and this reality that surrounds our body. But I survived. That was the astonishing part, I was so happy that I am able to fly LOL.

I think I woke up at this time and realized it was all just a dream :(( but because it was such a nice dream in years I literally just pushed myself back to sleep and continue dreaming/hallucinating.

With some practice, I gradually learned how to control my movements on air and had more confidence in myself. With some mental practice I was able to make myself stay in flight for a longer period of time. To prevent myself from draining out of mental power I flew at a lower height. It was for safety reasons as well.

I flew across the neighbourhood, looking at the herds of people right below my body, cars rushing to and fro. I was just like a bird! Flying through the shopping centre, flying through the shorter HDB flats, flying through the park and the swimming pool that I have described earlier. Along the way I met some familiar people, some of which I never really talk to any more. I was like so happy at that moment because I had this special power that no one had, and I was special and different from everyone. Even if I feel sad and whatever, I could still chill around in the air, and perhaps even flaunt my superpower to my friends. The strange thing is, no one reacted to me as I flew across them. Strange... maybe I was invisible when I was in the air??

However, I didn't really fly like a bird, I was literally swimming across the air. It felt absolutely wonderful and chill. I was doing breaststroke across the skies because my freestyle sucked. Amazingly, I would never fall to the ground. I looked down and I realized I was travelling as fast as the cars moving parallel to my direction.

And then the dream collapsed. Just like how Inception worked... there was no music though, it was just these flying images becoming less real and tangible, and then I opened my eyes slowly as I heard my morning call from my mother.

The End.

If you like to read about retarded dreams, please find the one on the right hand side (the blue toolbar) where I have another weird dream to share :)

Here's one of my fav songs, Superhero by Chingy (electro-pop)

The dream provided me with some instant relief from all my sianness and stuff. Which was awesome. This type of reality will never come again. As stupid as my dream seems, I was extremely ecstatic inside the dream- thinking it was real and finally I had some "true meaning" to life. Hahaha! Other than the relief provided by this dream, I thought of another significance here.

The brain is such a powerful organ- it perceives your reality, that if there was some technology to change your brainwaves or stuff to delve you into another world, you would probably believe it. Then everyone could have their own superpowers and enjoy being a different self that they really enjoy in this new world. It could even be the future era computer games, where you truly feel and live in the game as a true powerful protagonist with special abilities. And you could play not only in single player mode, but with other people as well.

However, sidetracking quite a bit, while I envision a brighter future, I'm always concerned about these advances in technology. Even though I fear of a world of technology that is used to monitor and control all of us, this remote possibility has been more than vanquished by the proliferation of the Internet and the social media. However, with huge powerful corporations pulling their strings and power, and politicians that often displease us by doing undemocratic decisions, it seems that the future of Internet and the real world is at stake with all those talks of signing SOPA and stuff. In Singapore, a blow has already been dealt as it has signed the ACTA. You can go watch YouTube videos about them, the one with the most views are very informative- you should do so before they are no longer there hahaha.

In our real life, we are gradually losing our privacy, consciously or unconsciously. Even as I blog, I'm losing my privacy as I write about my life and share it to unknowing strangers and friends alike who either read it for entertainment, sympathy, or a heck care attitude. On Facebook and Twitter, we ramble on and on, letting our mutual friends look at all the conversations that would have been kept private if it was done in real life. Our emails are often checked whether we like it or not for illegal file sharing and for keywords that may indicate that we are spamming people.

Sometimes we feel so helpless in the flow of events, we must adapt and get used to it. I guess that's just life is. Yes, that includes army.

*[ posted by me | TRIPLE KILL! ]*