I miss the past. I often make my mind live in it, because what you force yourself to think is probably what you perceive in reality, but it's this distorted and disillusioned reality that we live in. There were great and horrible times back in VS, ups and downs... I think so much more memorable than JC (but JC will be memorable in time to come I guess) whatever way I look at it. I miss everything... I really do T_T. But living in the past is like living in another realm that does not exist anymore. That moment of space and time have decayed for renewal of new ones, and I think it would do no good to pity myself for the things I wished I had done.
I have not treasured the past when it was not the present, and I am not treasuring the present like it is the past. I think that is horrible, cos I will live to regret if I have not lived my life to the fullest, if I have not loved to the fullest, if I have not enjoyed my life to the fullest. I say this at a point where I'm moving to my next point in life - NS, and then university hopefully, then a job. I definitely will live to see another day, I definitely will seize the day and make my life a memorable one - one that when I look back to my memories I would nod my head and smile peacefully hahaha. Even in a worse case scenario (WCS) where I totally have nobody to support me, I will redo my life and make it successful again, especially when I often complain of neglecting friends and losing them and blah³.
Anyway, in the great Channel 8 show, WCS is also dubbed as the gang name called "WE CAN SURVIVE". LOL coincidence much?
One thing I truly miss in 2009 was the DotA in houses we had. We need not be pro or too serious, just playing, chilling and having fun. And in 2010, 2008, 2007, 2006 as well. All our in-houses, pubs, LAN sessions, whatever. I loved all the games we played, I even saved some as replays. Now as I look back upon the games we have played, I just look upon ourselves like childish individuals having lots of fun, throwing lots of tantrums, not thinking about tomorrow, carefree, playing every Thursday and Friday (with my forceful smses hahaha). And even long before that it was many many people doing the job as well... everyone that had made it a success.
Now that we have moved along, now that we may no longer be good friends as we used to... I can only look at these replays in amusement... hahaha.
Another thing I missed is those soccer matches among our NP squad. I would never think I would miss them now. I'm like cursing and swearing at my noobie skills right here at this computer 2 years ago, and now I'm missing it. Humans are strange- I bet I will miss BMT soon enough when all this hell is over. Anyway, we all just went down to play soccer regardless of our skills, and I was some real noob there. But since there were so many noobs there as well- all my good friends- it was so fun hahahaha. Just anyhow kicking and defending the goalpost, while we watch our true talents kick the ball to the other side. It's like DotA as well- the pros all go up and initiate and the rest of us support. At the same time, I developed this sense of sympathy for newcomers in any game when I played soccer... everyone always has to start somewhere. I hope people do understand that I'm a slow learner in BMT...
And anyway, we will eat Ban Mian as a squad. Over and over and over again. On Friday. Gotta get down on Friday~ I guess we didn't understand the significance of living these times only once in the period of our lives. And we always had this compromise to play both DotA and soccer on Friday. I love our squad :O even if I'm hella irritating and talk irrelevant stuff they always compromise, we quarreled many times but we're mostly okay.
I miss my sec school classes too. Both of them. I just can't pen everything down here right now.
Anyway, I went out with most of my groups of friends already, I don't really know how much they care about me though but regardless there's no regretz :)
Bah... it's so late again, I'm once again spewing a cocktail of intensive English words on cyberspace. I go and sleep le. Goodnite. I wish all my dear friends (reading or not reading this) a great time at BMT :) take care all of you. Hopefully can see you soon and pls rmb me lolol.
Random song- Dust Raiders from my favourite game when I was 6- DX Ball Game 2 Great electro music for such a deceptively simple music. This must have shaped my love for all things electro and techno ^^
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Hobbies: Web designing, Game modifying and creating =), Playing DotA with friends, SimCitying alone, blogging and stoning at ceiling in my house lying on bed, mugging LOL JK
07* Wishlist * A computer of assets more then $1500 (ain't I greedy) Change the old TV $415
A MP3 player $159
A very good MP3 player $200-$500 A ATI *1000++ Xpress 256++MB graphics card or a GeForce Graphic Card (even better) 1 GB RAM (1 GB really will do) A Duo-Core Processor 2++MB LB CACHE & 2++ GHz
Blog to become very hot and popular (tell your frens)(priceless)
Making friends and understanding people that I already know
Don't make enemies and make people hate you
Be a nicer person and change my bad points (you can tag at my blog any bad points I have)
Babies from fish (priceless) [My fish tank is so dead anyways]
